Im learning to fly but I aint got wings

Comin down is the hardest thing

Well the good old days may not return
And the rocks might melt, and the sea may burn

I'm learning to fly but I ain't got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing

Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I started out for God knows where
But I guess Ill know when I get there

Learning to Fly- Tom Petty
seems fitting after the past couple of days
we have baby birds in the shop beside my office
chirping non-stop... not singing
but this song is pretty rad
and on the new album I bought
it's a mixture of old school stuff I didn't have

Speaking of youngins this is my youngest sister, Layne. I took this picture while playing Phase 10. Great game face isn't it... she is the one who makes me question reproducing. If my kid comes out of the womb acting a fool like this one I might end up in an institution. But on a serious note I have been struggling with her... trying to find balance and even ground with her is beginning to be as bad as trying to find a flippin Wii. She is a challenger and as much as I like a good challenge every once in a while... I'm close to holding up the white flag. Preteens are hell. I'm fixing to start spending a bit more time with her and digging into her crazy thoughts. Time well spent. Speaking of time... I have way too much free time on my hands. Which I'm trying to decide if its a bad thing... I'm quite enjoying myself but at the same time I feel this pull to do something... hand my time over to God... really. So I'm helping Jenny with this new thing and I'm pretty stoked to get started and getting this thing rolling. Not just doing something but doing it with purpose and passion and drive. And helping someone other than myself... pouring funds and tithe into something I believe in... I'm also pretty excited about visiting Downtown church again... This will be the second time. Connection is good. I feel disconnected from a few people that I wish I didn't... Summer is one. I miss our late night discussions and deep thoughtful conversations and even the odd chatter and laughter... and of course I miss getting to see her. Face to face is always better than the phone... its just not the same thing. Connection is needed at times.

thoughts today:
baby birds chirping is not my favorite

tonight will be refreshing
I miss Joey

4 o'clock is taking forever to get here