the storm is coming...

but I don't mind
people are dying
I close my blinds
all that I know is Im breathing now.

Keep Breathing- Ingred Michealson
fitting for my blog
I also listened to it last night
amazing sound
clean.

Last night. hum. Did ministry on a different level. Opened myself up and hung out with two amazing girls. I love the laughs and random convos and questions. I love listening to whats going on with them. But warning to the wise getting into their world can become a scary place. An eye opening experience. Just listening to them made me realize a lot I had been blind to... the teenage mind is a scary place to dwell. Its all about instant satisfaction. keeping distance form people older than you because "they don't understand". Its hiding the truth... doing whatever it takes to get what you want. We are selfish at that age [really many adults are selfish]. We need the newest hottest trend to fit into this world. We are really deep down scared even when we put up a front. We aren't aware of others around us.. when we have something we want in our sites or something on our agenda. We pretend like we care for the besties and the little girlfriends but really we want to get our benefits from the relationship...Its all about us.

Went to grab dinner with them... One wasn't hungry and wanted ice cream. One wanted mexican but not food just chips and dip. Im indifferent.. I just wanted us to sit down together and talk. So I decided that we split and grab or snacks and eat later. One wanted to go and get a friend a snack and surprise them at work. The other wanted to go shopping at Urban. They both wanted to do that so that's what we did. then after leaving there we went to the mall the get a cinnamon bun at Cindy's. One didnt want to be there so she sat in the car. I went in with the other to Cindy's. So then we went to Johnny Rockets to give the boy his snack... One had to get a milkshake. Then she mentioned something about needing her hair colored... she didnt mentioned it was because her best friend kept making fun of her. That came later. So we all agreed to go to the dollar movie. When we got there I picked the movie with one while the other complained about her cheese dip and something else. The movie we wanted to see didnt start for an hour so we agreed to buy a ticket to see the end of Walk Hard while waiting to see Dan in Real Life. When the movie was over [which I need to see the beginning to say if I like it or not] our intentions were to see the next movie. But one of the girls wanted to get their hair done... So she said she had to be home at a certain time.. then she said she didnt want to see the other movie. Then she said she was tired and then she changed the time her mother told her to be home. So I told them we could miss the movie and go do her hair at her house. The whole ride home she sat in silence. Sometimes I don't understand what goes on in peoples minds and at times I wish I had the power to listen to their thoughts.. just so I could understand. But then again you never know the things are swimming thru there... could be deeper and darker than I imagine.

"sometimes our looks speak volumes" hum. Today is going to be a good day. Im taking my sisters to a movie... Today will be a good day. My grandmother is town... the fathers mother. What a joy! I got her some breakfast and woke her up this morning.. :) that my friends is a fun task. She is so pleasant in the morning. lol. Today will be a good day.

I keep telling myself that but its true
:)

Today:
Do something for somebody you love.
Random acts of love will brighten anyone's day
and will plant a seed... good healthy seed.

Practice being selfless it is good for the heart.

grace and peace

merl