I have seen the rain...

I have felt the pain

I don't know where I'll be tomorrow

I don't know where I'm going

I don't even know where I've been

But i know I'd like to see them again.

Spend my days just searching Spend my nights in dreams

Stop looking over my shoulder baby

I've stopped wonderin' what it means

I Have Seen the Rain- James T Moore and P!nk
great song.. great melody.
hidden track on P!nks newest album
this her and her father

So this weekend was incredible. Friday night was bittersweet. Saturday was full of laughs and girls singing. Good mexican food and great company... Sunday I woke up early and meet up with Joey at his house. We left from there and headed to Atlanta. Great conversation and sweet moments. All to feed our hunger for zombie flicks.. I love a good horror and he loves any and everything zombie. We saw George A. Romero's Diary of the Dead it's part of what they call the Dead series.. It was interesting the political and world issues he hit on. From what I hear all of his Dead movies have a message/underlying world issue he plays with and uses his creative filming to get it out. So I have to see all the others now... this was my first and I truly enjoyed it. It had some pretty cool effects in it along with blood and killing... Im in. We went to Hard Rock in downtown before the movie.. yay for good food and being in a kick butt atmosphere. We got home right when the Academy awards started.. Joey watched the entire thing with me. It was his first time to watch the whole thing.. lol. No Country for Old Men owned last night which if you haven't seen the movie as soon as it hits the racks for rent go get it. Its twisted and absolutely amazing. I left the theatre with my heart pounding... I will own it. Writer of Juno won... whoot. Best original song went to Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova for Falling Slowly totally deserved it. Great movie. Great music. Love the Indie. There Will Be Blood won a few things.. which I haven't seen it yet so I cant judge but I don't think I want to see it. So If anyone has seen it and has the run down talk to me.

On the way home I had a moment. Every once in awhile it happens.. Its those moments where you've just had enough and you say whatever is on your mind. It wasn't that I was mad at anybody really I just get fed up with certain situations... Im tired of giving to people who are not in need. People who are spoiled. And I'm not talking material giving but the giving of love and time and compassion. Im tired of the giving that hurts... which I understand in ministry and everyday life it happens continuously and Im ok with that. I guess I just expect more out of the people closest to me... The people who know better. I have decided to shoot the dying dog. So until they decide to get out of their own muck and grossness I will no longer extend my arm or my heart. This may sound cold and frigid but this is built up from a year of worry, hurt and heartache... my emotions and heart cant take it. I go so far and then no further.. the only help I can extend now is prayer and patience. Sometimes people have to hit the bottom become absolutely nothing then return to their first love..If it takes that then my prayers are with them because it is gonna suck.

On a lighter note... sorry. I received a phone call this afternoon from the leader of Encounter which is a group my dad is involved in. I have worked with him before on some art pieces and did some art for an auction to help their Africa Ministry. He wants to do an Encounter night and wants it to be an art show. I am doing a series of pieces that will portray my life and walk with God... Another artist from Birmingham is doing the same thing and I really admire his work. So this should be fun. I am super pumped to get started... I will keep you guys updated on dates times and places.. He said it will be about 5 to 6 months from now but he is working on a place to do it. It will not be an auction but my stuff will be up for sale. Should be pretty cool so keep posted and I would love for you all to come.

This is one piece I did for their auction... Not the finished product. I really don't have any pictures of finished pieces.. but you get the idea. :) Im just excited to get to do something for me... to express and put my heart into something or on something.

grace and peace
merl ;)