Oh baby don't you know I suffer?

Oh baby can't you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?

Oooh...You set my soul alight

Supermassive Black Hole-Muse

Muse is growing on me

SLOWLY

Our group. My younger sister Layne joined us :)

our Twilight gansta sign

The photographers attempting to take photos of ourself

the beginning of the line at 9:30

All the people we passed at 10 when the doors opened. Suckers.

Well Ladies and Jets, I survived the late hours of Twilight. And might I add, the tween screaming was not as bad as I thought it would be. So I have decided I'm not gonna read anymore reviews but make my own. {*NO spoilers or at least I don't think*} I'm a bit disappointed in some of the fans who claimed to have read the books and yet seem to be so blind. But that is to be expected from "most" females... we are complex creatures. People... your expectations are too high these day [bunch of babies]. I'm overall very impressed by Catherine Hardwicke, director of my favorites Lords of Dogtown and Thirteen, yet again. Her visionary take on Twilight was astounding and very creative. A lot of the people were very critical after watching, with all the close up shots and slow pace at the beginning, but come on people it a freaking love story. The book was slow paced and for her to make it durable on screen she did a damn good job. I dig the documentary type shooting she does and for a book in a teenage girls perspective, I tip my hat to her for the way she played it out. I have to agree with the majority of film critics, the special effects were a bust but come on this isn't Warner Bros. we are dealing with. The effects they did do were descent and endearing for a, might I add again, low budget film and could easily be fixed without damaging the stage they have already set. Oh and the infamous "sparkle/meadow scene" was not as cheesy as I thought it would be they actually pulled it off tastefully. Here's hoping they get the budget they need to make more and make the others 10x better. The cast was surprisingly brilliant. Kristen Stewart as Bella was perfect really and her chemistry with the others on the screen was great. I loved her being awkward because honestly in the books Bella is a bit awkward... very sure of herself but awkward all bundled up in one and Kristen did a great job. Rob Pattison... wow. He hands down could not have been more perfect... In the sense that he played a tortured, hunky, loving, sadistic, endearing, masochistic, love struck VAMPIRE [not human... ladies] very well. I have to say like before, you girls are so funny when it comes to his part played out, you are comparing him to what Bella saw and felt when it is sooooo much more complex than that. I admit Rob is definitely not what I envisioned in my head but they never are... books give you so much room to imagine and dream. Movies are more to the point and cut throat when it comes to the vision aspect. The Cullens were brilliant. I'm very pleased with everyone who was cast, they were a blast to watch. The Nomads were amazing, dirty and filling all at the same time... Very well played. That being said, I'm in love with Jasper played by the oh so lovely Jackson Rathbone and James played by the hunky Cam Gigandet. Seriously, yum, is the only word that comes to mind. The "humans" were so cute and definitely need more love for the performance they pulled off. I feel in love with them and their quirks. They kept me smiling through every seen they appeared in. Now on to Jacob... I'm still not sold but there is much to be said about the performance Taylor Lautner did. He hit Jacob dead on as far as the characters attitude and relationship with Bella. His appearance not so much... Kudos to him for the effort, it did not go unnoticed. I did however love the last scene he appears in very intense and building on the characters relational growth in the movies to come. Billy Burke did a fascinating job playing the wonderful Charlie Swan [No one could have done it better]. Everyone else was great from Billy Black and the La Push kids all the way to the Biology teacher, I loved them all. A huge majority of the film was shot in Oregon and I may just stay there when I go visit in the coming months. The scenery was breathtaking not in the "epic" Lord of the Rings way but in the "wow" I wanna live there way. Did that make any since? I was pleased with the setup of the small town living put on the big screen. I will say it again Catherine Hardwicke impressed me as impressed as any Twi-fan should be. The writing was also brilliant for a 500 page book bundled into 2 hours of film... kudos to Melissa Rosenberg. The ending was killer. I'm happy to say I will be viewing it again tonight with another group of people... I'm interested to see their reactions and hear what they think of it. I encourage all to view it once and for those who haven't read the books I want to hear your thoughts :) I give it 3 1/2 out of 4 stars.

grace and peace

You don't really know why

But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away mother f#@^$er
It's just one of those days!!

Break Stuff- Limp Bizkit

its one of THOSE days

this is what I hit

this is the damage

I'm so mad right now I could just spit... or take an iron rod to the back of the truck I just hit, so there would be some mark of damage on the new work truck. A guy came in needing to get in our house to fix some cabinet doors he took down. My car had just been detailed and cleaned and washed and was all pretty and so it was still parked on the shipping porch.... I jumped in and noticed my back windshield wiper was on. So I was trying to back up and find the control to turn it off when my car hit the corner of the steel bed on the truck. All I could say was the F word about 10 times and few other derogatory slurs and go on my way. The conversation with my dad was delightful and the "talk" I will get tonight will be precious SOOOOO my day is going great, just great [damn]

ugh.

How I wish you could see the potential

The potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound
But in a language you can't read just yet

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

I Will Possess Your Heart-Death Cab For Cutie

The beat is amazing. The sound is inspiring.

my jam this week

This is the cutest stuff... I ran across this website a long time ago. BoldLoft.com, it has some cute things if you are looking for newly wed presents, or for your lover, or just for fun.. They have all kinds of stuff. I love the spiderman stuff, so cute. Check it out. My mom's childhood best friend is coming into town and she is nonstop energy and laughs so this weekend should be a blast :)

Cant wait til sunday Photos at the ranch 

this is gonna rock

Meet Zoe

Name: Zoe

Type: Yellow Lab

Relationship: Frap's daughter ext. my baby

Nickname(s): Zo, Fatty, Zo monster

Since she has been birthed she has been my dog, but my dad was determined to make her an amazing retrieving/hunting dog [like her mother]. She was sent up North [not sure where] for a year at the age of two for "school" where they train and work them until they are badass retrievers. She was never the most obedient of the liter and had the most personality when she was sent off to school that didn't change..[lol] I totally called it. My dad kept on about how good of a "hunting dog" she would be and I kept on saying "yea, big waist of money because she is so not passionate about retrieving anything but her food and love."  So after a year and some odd months she returned lazy as every and funnier than when she left. Eating turkeys off the counter.. Unrolling a whole thing of toilet paper.. when told to get on her bed going and sitting on the couch or my bed.. or snorting at you when she got in trouble. She is a bundle of mess and is Darcy's personal bed. She sleeps on top of her it's pretty funny. I brought her to the office yesterday because she was in desperate need of a bath and I wanted a buddy. I played with her all morning and left to go to the bathroom when I returned this is what I found.

Notice she is not looking at the computer but the cookies on the left.

I called her name and began to scold her, she did this..

and acted like I wasn't even there or she didn't hear me... I laughed so hard. So this is my other dog... my other sleeping buddy. friend. laughter. mess to clean up. 

love.

There are no guarantees in life...

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present, nor for the future
All I know is that I'm here
Don't know for how long
I love the way you live so intensely
Enjoying every minute of life
With faith to swing your arms around
Laughing loudly

Unlike me, unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you, unlike you
I am not pretending

Unlike Me-Kate Havenvik

Jessie's favorite... so I thought it was fitting

she is becoming my Grey's Anatomy buddy

and I teaching her some things about good artists

Teaser.. You should go check out the rest when you have time. [Fun at the ranch] I'm informed that I will be getting a new camera soon... business is slow so when we get some money its gonna happen. WORD. I also have brought my dad to the dark side, he is a Nikon fan and suggests I get a D80... hahaha I'm so bad. He bought a little P80 point and shoot and LOVES it. I'm still using my pitiful excuse for a camera... seriously though it has lasted 6 years so I cant complain. Well yeah I can. So... I'm listening to my shuffle today and "Its going down" comes on in all its ghetto fabulous glory. [No one in the office was as excited as I was] It reminds me of Justin and I miss him btw... His picture is the album cover art on the podness :) The office smells like coffee today which is amazing and I don't have my dog(s) [Zoe or Darcy]with me today so I will be lonely today. Oh which reminds me I have a funny story to share which I can visually show you as well. I decided to bring Zoe to the office with me yesterday because she gets forgotten at times and she is entertaining. I will post the story in a bit. Oh Stace has decided she wants Zoe. I have til August to "think" about it [lol], so I'm "thinking" about it. Darcy would be so lonely though... so I don't know we shall see. :) I might have to keep my eyes out for Stace come August because I seriously think she will high jack my dog if I say no.

grace and peace

I should never think...

What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh love
So call me by my name

And save your soul
Save your soul
Before your to far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
So hold off
She should hold off
It's the one thing that I've known

Never think-Rob Pattinson

His voice is pretty amazing

These are a sneak peak of the Brookwood yearbook shots I took. There are some more on my Facebook and Im loading them on Myspace as we speak. These girls are so much fun, can't believe they are graduating this year... I will be all teared up at graduation. Im so drained today, this sinus crap is kicking my butt.

so give me something to believe..

'cause i am living just to breathe and i need something more to keep on breathing for

Believe-The Bravery

new find

Looking through some old pictures this photo shoot was one of my favorites. Today has been short for some reason... Political debate this morning, Tweet non stop, Work, Errands, Post Office fun, Game Stop, Mario Kart [Wii], Karaoke game, Vietnamese food, Sabrina and Jenny, Funny convo, Accountant visit, Georgia boy almost gets shot by my 38 special, Computer surfing and now Im going to do photos for the Brookwood yearbook should be fun :)

lots of fun today

grace and peace

I pooted.

I mean voted :)

Today the only good things that have happened thus far is that my parents have returned early and I bought some sweet vinyls, other than that its been a poo day. Im ready for bible study then some serious sleep because I have realized that when you have children your sleepy time suffers. NOT a good thing. Overall the kids were fun and energetic and pains but it was a joy to spend quality time with them. Last night I spoke at the Captivating bible study that was interesting haven't been in front of kids in a while. Weird. 

Totally tempted to write in Switzerland today on my ballot 

grace and peace

Hide your face forever..

dream and search forever

Have you ever been for sale ?
when your isms get smart
oh so selfish and mindless
with that comment in your eye

Do you think that you are hard ?
really harder than the other
man you're acting cold
if you are not in charge

Don't split your mentality
without thinking twice
your voice has got no reason
now is the time to face your lies

Open Your Eyes-Guano Apes

good tune :0)

Time is good. Time is needed. This weekend was good. I am playing mama, daddy and boss this week until wednesday when the folks get in... So far we have carved pumpkins, taught them the proper way to make smores, cleaned, baked chicken, made a for real breakfast, washed a shit load of clothes geez, made pasta and chicken, had sushi, cleaned some more, watched Grey's Anatomy season 2 (for the 3rd time), cleaned the porch off, baked pumpkin seeds, cleaned again, washed dishes like 3 times a day ugh, found a Corona and drank that Corona, dropped off Layne at a party, then picked up groceries, found my Nintendo 64 and played for a bit (007 of course), cleaned then lounged for a few hours Sunday... good stuff. Saw Staci somewhere in all of that mess. I had a lot of time this weekend which was good.

FYI kids are a mess. 

those families with like crazy 

amounts are cynically insane.