I need...

-My Narnia book [I have 2 chapters left and I cant move on until I read the end] I left at the church along with a copy of church keys [because every time I go to get a copy they have the machine closed down or broken or somebody who doesn't know how to do it]
-My heart to stop hurting
-To find a different way of living that works... I'm unhealthy right now
-Business to pick up and people to stop whining [spend money and pour back into the economy its the only way this is gonna get better]
-The Government to not come up with any more bogus bills to pass[MILLIONS going to global warming research...puh-lease... that just went into some schmoes pocket, maybe even Al Gore]
-The two men looking at my grandmothers house to back out
-My family to not be crazy
-My cat to stop scratching the crap out of me
-A reason not to leave
-A new camera
-Our very rich neighbor to purchase my dad's property for $5 mil
-Our very rich neighbor to make some kind of offer on the property
-The cute [very hippie] guy in the office to not be so dang cute and sweet
-Granola snack mix... I'm having a craving
-My ideas to become reality
-My creative dry spell to end... now.
-Strength. hope. love.
-Prayer



I'm being pulled in so many directions it's unreal. For the first time in a while I feel alive... which sounds dramatic but seriously I have felt so dry lately. Onevision has been a blast starting up and helping out with youth again is refreshing and eye opening. But God pulling, tugging on me and filling me up has been the only thing getting me through the days. Giving me hope. Teaching me patience. Healing my heart. Showing me freedom. He has loved on me through it all. My needs [above] are so small compared to the grand scheme of things and seem irrelevant but I thought I would share. Sometimes release is good.

I'm working on being open and ready for anything. I'm totally chasing the Wild Goose.

sleepless nights, drowning at the bar
when it comes to mind blood rushes to my head
like a sad song all along I’m the one who’s scared
the won who lost and a fool to pay the cost
I shoulda done my best &I shoulda loved you steady
but I'm learning as I go,
don’t you know there are days when it hurts so bad
everybody changes with a chance,
yeah but I’m learning as I go,
don’t you know there are days when it hurts so bad
everybody changes with a chance, and I came around.

I Came Around- Amie Miriello



grace and peace

meet -?-

My new kitten. Im still in the naming process... its a tie between O'Malley, Taegan, and Presley. Im in  love with her...seriously. Thoughts?

Who I am, Who I'm not, Who I want to be..

You Found Me- The Fray

great new jam

Merry Christmas everyone 

I havent taken Christmas pics but I will post when I do

these are old photos... wishing you all merry christmas

:)

Oh baby don't you know I suffer?

Oh baby can't you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?

Oooh...You set my soul alight

Supermassive Black Hole-Muse

Muse is growing on me

SLOWLY

Our group. My younger sister Layne joined us :)

our Twilight gansta sign

The photographers attempting to take photos of ourself

the beginning of the line at 9:30

All the people we passed at 10 when the doors opened. Suckers.

Well Ladies and Jets, I survived the late hours of Twilight. And might I add, the tween screaming was not as bad as I thought it would be. So I have decided I'm not gonna read anymore reviews but make my own. {*NO spoilers or at least I don't think*} I'm a bit disappointed in some of the fans who claimed to have read the books and yet seem to be so blind. But that is to be expected from "most" females... we are complex creatures. People... your expectations are too high these day [bunch of babies]. I'm overall very impressed by Catherine Hardwicke, director of my favorites Lords of Dogtown and Thirteen, yet again. Her visionary take on Twilight was astounding and very creative. A lot of the people were very critical after watching, with all the close up shots and slow pace at the beginning, but come on people it a freaking love story. The book was slow paced and for her to make it durable on screen she did a damn good job. I dig the documentary type shooting she does and for a book in a teenage girls perspective, I tip my hat to her for the way she played it out. I have to agree with the majority of film critics, the special effects were a bust but come on this isn't Warner Bros. we are dealing with. The effects they did do were descent and endearing for a, might I add again, low budget film and could easily be fixed without damaging the stage they have already set. Oh and the infamous "sparkle/meadow scene" was not as cheesy as I thought it would be they actually pulled it off tastefully. Here's hoping they get the budget they need to make more and make the others 10x better. The cast was surprisingly brilliant. Kristen Stewart as Bella was perfect really and her chemistry with the others on the screen was great. I loved her being awkward because honestly in the books Bella is a bit awkward... very sure of herself but awkward all bundled up in one and Kristen did a great job. Rob Pattison... wow. He hands down could not have been more perfect... In the sense that he played a tortured, hunky, loving, sadistic, endearing, masochistic, love struck VAMPIRE [not human... ladies] very well. I have to say like before, you girls are so funny when it comes to his part played out, you are comparing him to what Bella saw and felt when it is sooooo much more complex than that. I admit Rob is definitely not what I envisioned in my head but they never are... books give you so much room to imagine and dream. Movies are more to the point and cut throat when it comes to the vision aspect. The Cullens were brilliant. I'm very pleased with everyone who was cast, they were a blast to watch. The Nomads were amazing, dirty and filling all at the same time... Very well played. That being said, I'm in love with Jasper played by the oh so lovely Jackson Rathbone and James played by the hunky Cam Gigandet. Seriously, yum, is the only word that comes to mind. The "humans" were so cute and definitely need more love for the performance they pulled off. I feel in love with them and their quirks. They kept me smiling through every seen they appeared in. Now on to Jacob... I'm still not sold but there is much to be said about the performance Taylor Lautner did. He hit Jacob dead on as far as the characters attitude and relationship with Bella. His appearance not so much... Kudos to him for the effort, it did not go unnoticed. I did however love the last scene he appears in very intense and building on the characters relational growth in the movies to come. Billy Burke did a fascinating job playing the wonderful Charlie Swan [No one could have done it better]. Everyone else was great from Billy Black and the La Push kids all the way to the Biology teacher, I loved them all. A huge majority of the film was shot in Oregon and I may just stay there when I go visit in the coming months. The scenery was breathtaking not in the "epic" Lord of the Rings way but in the "wow" I wanna live there way. Did that make any since? I was pleased with the setup of the small town living put on the big screen. I will say it again Catherine Hardwicke impressed me as impressed as any Twi-fan should be. The writing was also brilliant for a 500 page book bundled into 2 hours of film... kudos to Melissa Rosenberg. The ending was killer. I'm happy to say I will be viewing it again tonight with another group of people... I'm interested to see their reactions and hear what they think of it. I encourage all to view it once and for those who haven't read the books I want to hear your thoughts :) I give it 3 1/2 out of 4 stars.

grace and peace

You don't really know why

But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away mother f#@^$er
It's just one of those days!!

Break Stuff- Limp Bizkit

its one of THOSE days

this is what I hit

this is the damage

I'm so mad right now I could just spit... or take an iron rod to the back of the truck I just hit, so there would be some mark of damage on the new work truck. A guy came in needing to get in our house to fix some cabinet doors he took down. My car had just been detailed and cleaned and washed and was all pretty and so it was still parked on the shipping porch.... I jumped in and noticed my back windshield wiper was on. So I was trying to back up and find the control to turn it off when my car hit the corner of the steel bed on the truck. All I could say was the F word about 10 times and few other derogatory slurs and go on my way. The conversation with my dad was delightful and the "talk" I will get tonight will be precious SOOOOO my day is going great, just great [damn]

ugh.